03.02.03 GODDAMMIT, Does anyone understand the private folder thing? Can't make it work right. I feel uneasy in the niceness of having a speech prepared 3 days early... And sitting here, regretably, I have became too comfortable telling the world my business and it is starting to be a real drag. Honestly, how many times can I tell a story about being fucking drunk & pathetic? BF is at his "diddy's" house getting drunk right now. I need to make a list. I need constant reassurance. I need someone to fix this hole in my mood. I need an exotic vacation. And, oh yeah - I am going to quit drinking. I swear. Tommorrow - quit thinking. I promise. (Just don't take away my valium) I feel grimy like I just smoked a half a pack of camel light menthols in 2 hours, like I just ate an egg biscuit, like I need a bath, and that I wish I were drunk. It is now officially time to start what I intended to do by starting this. (huh?) Yeah, and this is it - do you ever feel like "this is fucking it"? Sorry, I didn't mean to get all CRAZY on you diary. I am just sick of it. That's all. I am sick of everyfuckingthing... I'll let you know how it turns out. |
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