05.26.04 I'm still here... wherever here is. This is how I feel about this whole internet diary thing: In my last entry when I said that I was "switching off" - I didn't mean that I wasn't going to write anymore, just that I was changing the way that I go about it. I'm tired & sick & worn out of writing to a general "audience"... so tired of writing & feeling like I was just entertaining some people with all my "problems"... I LOVE to write & this way I can trust that people read & kinda-sorta know me but aren't just interested in some morbid train-wreck type of stuff to read. I AM, however, finished with Dland - there are too many memories here. I'm hoping to start my life in a positive direction and there are all those entries here of all the stupid, sad, depressing, dramatic, personal, wretched things I've done/said/experienced that make me sad. It feels better to write personally to my friends... Love, Abbey |
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